I trust you. I miss you. I love you.

Above is the video of me playing KAU PERGI JUA.
One of my favourite song.

:D I MISS you E.

Hari Raya Korban 2009

I just learned this clause!

"Kerana diriku begitu berharga"



P/S: Miss my Mom badly!

I want to share this with you all.

Today, and again, I did my job with my GP tutor.
Seeing patients on my own which were good experiences and lessons.

I am amazed of how patients can present with varied cases. Some of them came with simple as well as complicated cases.

One of my GP just lost her husband recently due to spontaneous bleeding in the brain. The husband was never a smoker and yet perhaps thats because of genetic factor. God knows.

Life is something we cannot predict. Sometimes, we were given happiness and sweetness in our life but sometimes it is full of bitterness.

Realizing that, of how much we love somebody, in the end the person is going to die. What we are left with is the present, it is NOW.

What we have now is precious and I believe we will never lose anything just to let them know that we love them so much.

I am left with no choice other than missing you.

Life is fair and full of loves so that I listed things I would like to do before I DIE....

Firstly, who does not want to be what he/she wants to be? So I have decided to be a skin specialist.

Open a skin spa, which will be located in the centre of Malaysia.

Bring my parents to Mecca, so that it will be their second time there.

Be a very loyal and devoted partner to my other half.

Have I mentioned to get a pet? Well, one will be an iguana and the other would be a dolphin. So I need to build a pool in my house (Gosh, again money!)

I want to renovate my house in Penang so that it would be a very cosy place for my family to live.

I want to be myself so that people will remember me when I die. Because by being myself, to love myself and to love others all my heart, with prayers and hopes, I am sure that is a divine way to show the world that LOVE rocks!!!! yeahhh...

Eid Al Adha

Yay..at least I've got something to look forward to.

Eid Al Adha.

:D

My passion

I love cooking as u can see the pictures. Above is tortelloni (italian pasta) and one is chicken curry.



With this chicken curry, I suppose a nan or chapati or roti canai would be a great companion of this curry isn't it?

It was you who....

When I had problem with MARA in Malaysia last summer holiday, it was YOU who consoled me...

When I had some issues with my family, it was YOU who calmed me down...

When I was so tired and could not feel my legs, it was YOU who gave a very good massage on them...

When I was at your place, having early breakfast for the next Ramadhan day, it was YOU who cooked a very delicious meal...

When I was so craving for Thai food, it was YOU who bought me a plate of kerabu mangga(mango salad)my favourite...

When I was having problems here in UK, it was YOU who listens to my cries and tears...

When I felt lonely, it was YOU who sent texts of loves and care...

When I need someone to lean on, it was YOU who is there for me...

I could not live or breathe without YOU..

YOU are my oxygen...
YOU are my blood...
YOU are my heart...
YOU are my world...

So this is the time to say I NEED YOU...nobody can replace YOU

(Specially dedicated to E. Daniel)

I never had a birthday gift this year!

I never had a gift from anybody in October this year!

Last year it was in Malaysia. That time it was a cake of Secret Recipe with some friends. But unluckily, this year my birthday I celebrated in Great Britain with Salad and Daos.

But I know I can treat myself with J Co doughnuts in the future. Half a dozen would be only mango ones.

Can anybody post those to me?

Please....(Begging)

Why do we still need to compare?

Recently I read my beloved's blog. What was brought up is how people like to judge Kelantanese people and call them names.

I dont understand why Malays, well obviously true isn't it?, like to separate themselves and compare according to countries they are from.

I thought that we are now living in the modernized world and yet applying modernized principles upon unity of nations. If Malays can be good friends to Chinese and Indians, why not Malays are close to Malays themselves even? Without applying racism in life which in turn will terminate the sweetness of independence.

What we call MERDEKA is no longer active and alive. Regardless of our countries, is it hard to become One?

Is it hard to become peaceful and yet civilised nations?

Life is TOO short to let RACISM into your life. We have a brain and utilize it as maximal as we can.

What I did on these two days of nothing.

Despite the depressing weather and also being locked in my room due to my viral illness, I managed to sleep more than I should have. It is fair enough as sick people need more rest and good food to keep them going.

Missing my other half in Malaysia would be so terrible for me as it always happens every minute of everyday. I could not believe it has been roughly 6 and a half weeks we are apart. Even crying and sighing would not be enough to pay my missing upon you dear.

Besides, I also had time to chat with some friends in Facebook as well as in Yahoo Messenger. We talked a lot about boredom and what could we do to fill our time with something we enjoy. One of it is reading blogs.

Looking at Yasmin's and Aflin's, they remind me of being independent and self reliant. It is so hard for me of being all alone in Bangor, North Wales, UK having no acquaintance to hang out with. Well, that is not a reason for me to dwell in gloominess isn't it?

I wondered, how Yasmin can produce lots of super nice commercial breaks. They are so touching and yet left deeper impacts on my life.

Of all things I do, I could not forget about you E. Of all things I enjoyed, you are the most subject I could think of. Enough said about my other half. Let us move on to another topic.

I have been planning to go somewhere this weekend just to chill and release the tension of being alone in UK. It hurts more to realize at this stage you are only capable to pray and love your beloveds from far away. Nothing much I could do.

Dear God, I pray to you, you are the Most powerful Grantor of prayers, I pray that my parents, my family and you E to be safe and always in good condition because I know, we would not be here until today without love.

Missing you is not enough so that is why I pray so that my love can shine upon you.

Random entry for a random narcissistic vain....

Just got back from Rhyl this evening. I am so tired.

An entry of Liverpool tour would proceed.

Just wait and relax ok people?

p/s: Need to practise to pose in front of mirror as I am no expert!

Your name E means 'Everything' to me...

Tonight I called you many times but no answers.

No wonder, your mobile was broken, so that I couldnt get hold of you.

I worried all night but then you called me through your skype.

It was so sweet of you, thinking that I will be waiting for you for a long time just to see you.

When we talked, you gave me all these sentences and bait of lyrics you know.

You are so sweet and so meaningful in my life.

The song above you dedicated to me. Thanks E.


Some of your words are:

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

- Courtney Kuchta -

and one more:


A gentle word like a spark of light,
Illuminates my soul
And as each sound goes deeper,
It's YOU that makes me whole

There is no corner, no dark place,
YOUR LOVE cannot fill
And if the world starts causing waves,
It's your devotion that makes them still

And yes you always speak to me,
In sweet honesty and truth
Your caring heart keeps out the rain,
YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof

So thank you my Love for being there,
For supporting me, my life
I'll do the same for you, you know...


I AM SO TOUCHED with all these, and yet you still had time to check on me, even you were extremely tired.

Many thanks dear for your love, I appreciate it so much.

I know it has been so much cliche to you, but I LOVE YOU....and definitely I MISS YOU!

How many times should I cry watching this funeral advertisement by Yasmin Ahmad?

It touches my inner self. My heart breaks into pieces seeing this advertisement.

No matter how our partner look like or behave, one should appreciate him or her.

Everytime I see this commercial break, I cry and this makes my heart shattered.

I realize of how much love means to me. That is why I keep telling to my sweetheart of how much my love to you.

I accept for who you are, your beautiful imperfections make me love you even more.

What makes my heart grows fonder when I am with you...

Look, I dont know how to put my words together so that they sound so romantic to you.

Looking at all those pictures above, they remind me of you.

I know it is not good to miss you a lot but hey it is a feeling of nobody could understand.

It can neither be forced to forget nor to chase it away. It appears as it is.

I miss your scooter and you look so cute on it.

I miss your blue painted walls haven because there is Jenggo inside.

All I have is the necklace you gave me. It is you inside it.

I miss you more than you know.

Hello world, this is my cute little brother!

This my brother. His nickname is Along. Please dont ask me how he got the nickname.

Anyway, lots of stories of his I want to tell you here. But I think it is best I only focus on selective matters.

He is very cute to the point of he cares for me as a brother. He is going to further his studies next year in Business and Management.

He is already taken. Sorry girls out there!

I miss you too brother and hope that you also can look after abg Emad ok?

Hope to see you soon and many stories and gossips to be told. I cant await the moment. :D